Monday, 28 September 2015

Creating your own Universe

We keep forgetting that we are gods. All of us. The Old Testament, the Torah, stipulates that Elohim had created the world. Few of us seem to know that in Hebrew, Elohim is plural. It means gods. And since creation is an ongoing process we, you and I, continue to create our worlds, our Universes, or better said our realities, on an ongoing basis. Whatever we visualize, develop with our minds by listening to our Unconscious, then enliven the idea with our imagination and emotions, sooner or later becomes our personal reality.
When our creations overlap with other peoples’, the reality becomes objective. Usually, it is only what we perceive with our physical senses.
That, however, does NOT make it ‘real’ in either the subjective nor objective sense. It is transient, ephemeral. As mentioned, creation is an ongoing process.
The mention in the Torah that Universe had been created in 7 days is just a metaphor. In the Bible number 7 represents personal perfection, a sort of fait accompli. Done. Finished. Actual perfection refers only to ideas that reach us from the Unconscious, not to what we manage to manifest in the phenomenal reality. The final product, as we know, is illusory. Transient. Ephemeral. Only our transient egos call it real. Today’s scientists know that ‘material’ world is “virtually empty space”. Einstein called it intertwining energy fields.
Not real.
So… why bother?

That is the secret of all secrets. All ideas already exist in their perfect Potential Form. Our access to them is only through our Unconscious. Hence meditation/contemplation is so important. The Subconscious is the storehouse of what we’ve already experienced; of all realities we’ve already visualized and manifested in the past. The new stuff, the omnipresent, inexhaustible Source of new ideas, hovers on the edge of our Consciousness in the eternal, infinite, Unconscious.
Some people call it God, with a capital G.

The Creative Process is eternal.
It is our ability to participate in It that makes us gods. Visualization is the first indispensible step towards its implementation. We are not here to slave and suffer “forever after”. That reality is an invention of ignorant pessimists, or sadists, who want to scare people with their image of hell, or with eternal boredom of heaven depicted as “eternal rest”.
Heaven is right here and how. As the “Good Book” says, within you. That’s within you and me. Everyone. You can’t die and ‘go’ to heaven. Where you ‘go’ is to a temporary holiday, a haven of your Subconscious. There you, the Individualized Consciousness, have access to all your memories, and you can relive them at will. Good and bad. Your choice.
Remember, you are not your phenomenal, i.e. temporary physical body. You are, as I am, the Consciousness that abides in it, for the sole purpose of being gods. And being gods simply means being creative. It means developing abstract ideas that reach us from the Unconscious into realities we might share with others.
It’s a wonderful life!


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Wednesday, 23 September 2015


Sometime ago I questioned whether a long life is a blessing, or a karmic punishment for deeds or thoughts committed in present or past incarnations. The jury is still out. For some reason, people who no longer contribute to the creative benevolence of the Universe, seem to hung on to dear life. Only, the life is no longer dear. Often they are sick, live on analgesics, hover on the edge of dementia if not Alzheimer’s.
They are the same people who fall asleep every day, never knowing if they are going to wake up. On waking they often enjoy at least vague recollection of their dreams, yet seldom if ever do they realize that the Subconscious, which seeds their dreams with wondrous experiences, is hardly more nor less then the heaven they are so determined to avoid. Admittedly, not the highest heaven, not even a high one, but heaven nevertheless where we are free to enjoy the seemingly impossible with impunity. In our dreams we are immortal, blessed with near infinite power, capable of travelling well beyond the velocity of light. We can change realities with a wink of our chimerical eye; chimerical, yet in our dreams, as real as the soil beneath our feet.
In our dreams, we are gods.

And this brings be to “Things my Mother told me”. We visited my mother frequently, first taking her for a walk, towards the end pushing her in a wheelchair often, at her request, to the chapel. And there she gave indisputable evidence that the instinct of self-preservation is not always a blessing. She was a practicing Catholic, blessed with powerful faith. Hence it came as a surprise when we overheard her pleas uttered before the cross at the altar.
“Take me,” she pleaded. “Please, please, take me…”
Her religious conditioning did not allow her to accelerate her translation from the phenomenal reality to a higher realm, even that of first heaven.

Someone wrote: The Gate—Things my Mother told me draws you in with subtlety, wit, compassion and faith. An intriguing and captivating look at the last sixty years of western culture that holds you even though we all know how her story is going to end. It will be of particular interest to people who experienced Alzheimer's or Dementia in their immediate family.”

And others added…
“This is a jewel of a piece of writing…” noted Kate Jones.

“A novel that deserves to be read by millions of people” commented Johann David Renner.

What brilliance this is. …it’s nearly impossible to find comparable smart, curious, insightful and imaginative writing on his level… How do we construct a life with love? How do we teach ourselves how to die?
…the book does something I've never experienced before in moving from very self aware memoir towards an awareness of the dementia/dying processes, and then to a lack of awareness of them.
Achingly beautiful…”

        Let me know what you think. You can have a free copy, if you do. Please?

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Friday, 18 September 2015


The physical body is little more than a symbol, an operating convenience—the end product of energies oscillating within.
Soul is not a spirit with hazy contours appearing whimsically to people in a religious trance. This image belongs in Hollywood, in films such as “Ghostbusters”: great fun, but far from reality.
Soul is a biblical name for our Subconscious, or the sum-total of memories, which identify us from other “Entities”. And those Entities are, by definition inseparable Individualizations of the Omnipresent Universal Consciousness. Although we give It some esoteric names, this Universal Consciousness referred to by many as God, is beyond any definition. As Baruch Spinoza once said, “to define God is to deny God,” as the act of defining sets limits, and thus detracts from the Infinite. Spinoza paid dearly for daring to speak the truth. At human level we can think of the Universal Consciousness as the Unconscious, which is the Infinite Source of ideas. Then, depending on the evolutionary level we’ve achieved, we can attempt to convert those ideas into thoughts, ignite them with imagination and eventually bring them out, so to speak, into the transient, ephemeral, illusory phenomenal reality.

Now imagine Yeshûa attempting to explain this to Peter, the other apostles, and to a lesser degree the “Many”. Even speaking to the “Few Chosen Ones”, he often commiserated with “Why do you not understand my speech?!” (John 8:43 et alii: other references at ). The language Yeshûa spoke did not offer ‘modern’ terminology.
Today, thanks to Albert Einstein and Max Plank (Niels Bohr, Louis de Broglie and a few others), we are just beginning to grasp the consequences of the permeability of ‘matter’. This, in turn, leads to the creative process, which allows various energies to change their rate of vibration, and to slow down sufficiently to become detectible to our senses.
How Yeshûa learned the Universal Truth must, at least for now, remain a mystery. Yet, but some means or other, perhaps by direct thought transfer, he managed to inspire Peter sufficiently for him to grasp the essence of indestructible amorphous energy of Consciousness.   

Paul did not enjoy this one-on-one educational advantage. All along he suspected that Peter was right, and that the journey that he, Paul, was not quite on the right track.
It took Peter an incredibly traumatic experience, a threefold denial of knowledge of his Master, teacher, and friend, before he managed to sublimate his ego. It's that difficult. Sublimation of ego means the loss of the sense of separation from the Whole.
It was even harder for Paul. Brought up in Jerusalem, schooled at the feet of Gamaliel in the law of the fathers, he fought any intrusion into tradition. Yeshûa’s teaching was anathema to him.
Until one day…
Until one day he had a vision. From that moment on he did the best he could to prepare people at large, the Many, for the “Good News”. Alas, he lacked the Master’s personal touch.
It wasn’t easy. Read on…

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Monday, 14 September 2015


Male and Female created he them, states the book of Genesis. We seem to forget that the statement has a double meaning. One, that having created Adam He, God, went about creating Eve (rib story). But there is the second, less fundamentalist meaning which makes a lot more sense, and that is that we evolved as hermaphrodites. That the human species carries both, male and female characteristics, and they differ only in certain, almost marginal qualities.
Although it seems by far the most prevailing subject for fiction published lately, I am not talking about erotica, porno or even ‘just’ sex. What I am saying is that men and women are both equipped with the same Subconscious, i.e. indelible memory, and that Consciousness is expressed as much but not identically through both, men and women. The realm of Universal Consciousness is so vast, in fact infinite, that it needs a little diversity through which to express Itself. We, men and women, inter alia, provide this diversity. The physical differences between us are, frankly, marginal. Hence… homosexuals, androgens, intersex, epicenes, biological bisexuals, gynandromorphs, which are all common in the diversity of nature.
We are no different.
All living organism store genetic information in the same molecules, known as DNA and RNA.
We are all carriers of the amorphous energy of life.

However, we are not concerned here with physical differences, but with other human characteristics such as the functioning of our mind and emotions, which contribute to our creative capacity. 
We use our brains to diversify and process the vastness of the input we receive from our Unconscious. To aid us in this endeavour, nature equipped us with the left and right hemispheres of the brain. While both are made up of billions of identical neurons, their arrangement is such as to favour specific functions, partially at the expense of the other. Only very few and very exceptional people can balance both hemispheres and apply the total of their capacity and ability to the task at hand.
We must remember that the word ‘holy’, which we came to equate with ‘sacred, ‘consecrated’, or ‘sanctified’, originates from the same root as ‘whole’ or ‘healthy’. Hence ‘holy’ means complete or undivided.

This brings us to the stories of Anne Howell of Avatar Syndrome and Headless world.  
Neurosurgeons at the Montreal Neurological Hospital discovered that in Anne’s brain the Medulla Oblongata and the Pons that act as communication and coordination center between the two halves of the brain, are disproportionally larger than in average people. This in addition of the ‘over-developed’ corpus callosum, which connects the two hemispheres, also contributed to Anne having unprecedented ability to draw on both halves of her brain in unison.
It bears mentioning that it is usual to have the front portion of corpus callosum larger in musicians than non-musicians…
The rest is history. She became a world-renown virtuoso. There were other consequences, on global scale, which you’ll have to discover for yourself in the sequel, the Headless World.  

Prequel to the Headless World
Book One of Anne Howell Duology

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Thursday, 10 September 2015

YESHUA—A Personal Memoir

There is a strange dichotomy seemingly built into human psyche. We want to celebrate our achievements, exalt our ego, and yet we need others to take the blame if things go wrong. Also, no matter how high our ego takes us, we all seem to reach even higher, to an Entity we call God, and no matter how successful we become, most of us live in fear that this imaginary Entity will slap our wrists if we misbehave.
In this sense, we are still children though no longer in Paradise.
As a child, Essenes steeped in tradition, engrossed in prophecies, indoctrinated Yeshûa’s young mind. Soon Yeshûa must have realized that the teaching had little to do with everyday life, nor was it practiced by the majority of people.
Disappointed, at first opportunity he escaped their ministrations. Like any young man, he needed freedom to think on his own.

This is why the Bible remains silent regarding the next 18 years of Yeshûa’s life. We can only speculate what must have happened during those years. One thing we do know, and that is that Yeshûa remained faithful to the teaching of the Prophets and the Mosaic Law. He already noticed that neither the Scribes nor Pharisees practiced the Law. He needed to broaden his horizons, study other religions, philosophies.
On his eventual return to Jerusalem, he shared his knowledge. What this was you can read in the Bible, providing you accept that in his day people had their own idiomatic way of expressing ideas. Hence the Dictionary of Biblical Symbolism I offered last week.
Once thing we know for certain, and that is that if it weren’t for his travels and the acquired learning, Christianity would never have happened. He would not have the knowledge to point out how far the Israelites of his day have drifted from the original philosophy.

How Yeshûa may have reached his conclusions is the story of my book. There may have been other ways. My story explores one possibility. My researched was based on data available at the time of my writing.
We must remember that some 1300 years before Yeshûa was born, Moses had similar problems. People of each generation stray away from their origins and slowly drift into the realities of illusion and deceit. Thanks to Einstein and quantum physicists we now know that physical reality is sham. That in fact it consists exclusively of energy, and that even that which we recognize as ‘solids’, or matter, are merely quanta of energy slowed down sufficiently for us to be recognized with our physical senses. And… even then those quanta are 99.99999etc… empty space.

Yeshûa did not have our advantages. Yet, like his prophetic predecessors, he had to imagine a reality where ‘spirit’, or Consciousness is the only reality. Not easy for people steeped in phenomenal reality…  just like most of us are even today. Perhaps one day, like Yeshûa’s, our journey will turn inwards.
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Sunday, 6 September 2015

2000 Years of Ignorance.

Truth must be continuously rediscovered. Perhaps the learned scholars left so many words not translated in the Old and New Testaments, to await the time when people will be capable of accepting and absorbing the Truth hidden from the “unholy eyes”. I remind you of an astounding promise. If you find out for yourself what Moses, Jesus and the prophets really said to their people. "The truth will set you free.
According to Emmet Fox, the celebrated author of a number of books on biblical subjects, the time has come. It might have something to do with the Age of Aquarius, during which period, lasting some 2150 years, we are to earn to stand on our own feet, most probably without propping ourselves up with religious dogmas, priesthood and, perhaps most of all without TV evangelists who, according to other TV programs, are robbing people blind.
To each his and her own.
I prefer to walk “The road less travelled”. I hope, once you discover the mysteries, which my Dictionary unveils, so will you. You will cut your own way through the jungle of theological arguments with confidence born of the Truth you discovered on your own.
From the first High Priest of Israel, (c. 1564 BC - 1451 BC), it was all downhill.  Finally Yeshûa (Jesus) described the priesthood as: “Ye blind guides” (Matt.23:16), “Ye fools” (Matt.23.17), “Ye serpents” (Matt.23:33), “Ye generations of Vipers” (Matt. 23:33), “hypocrites” (Luke 11:44), and some other well chosen phrases. No wonder they crucified him. He was not good for business?
Little has changed.
We seem to forget that when most of the Bible was written there were NO churches, NO (Christian priesthood as yet), NO Vatican, no TV evangelists. The purpose of the Bible was quite different. Now, thanks to my Dictionary, you can find out for yourself what it was all about.
No. I am NOT going to tell you what the Bible teaches. I leave that to today’s version of Scribes and Pharisees. But I offer you the means to find out for yourself. I’ll show you how I did it for myself, but you must travel your road on your own.
The road less travelled.

I conclude with an excerpt from a review of the Dictionary by an author from England, Alistair Forrest:

“…I am an enthusiast of the Old Testament as history. Now there is a way to read and understand the OT as teaching. I am so grateful for Stanislaw's dictionary and his depth of understanding, especially in the extremely helpful examples he gives of understanding otherwise seemingly dry OT passages.
       ...This deserves wide recognition not only among the followers of religion but also anyone seeking inspiration and understanding.”

Remember, according to the document we are discussing, Ye are gods and heaven is within you.  Everyone of you. Or at least the Potential dwells within your Consciousness.
The rest is up to you.
Good luck! 

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Wednesday, 2 September 2015

Argument for Evolution

The remnants of past knowledge reached us in symbolic form. We ate the apple from the tree of knowledge. Our subconscious (Eve) substituted knowledge from without for the knowledge that lies deep within our psyche. We got expelled from Eden—from Paradise, wherein all knowledge came only from within.
Today only little children retain this natural ability to create reality by converting unconscious ideas into imaginary phenomena. Yet, all too soon, we, adults, the all-knowing apes of dubious intelligence, destroy this trait by substituting knowledge gained from within, by pseudo-knowledge acquired from without. Parents, teachers, preachers, scientists, substitute illusory phenomenal reality for true reality.
Few of us seem aware of dual evolution. One affects our environment—the other our relationship to that environment. The first might be named the evolution without, the latter—within. The first creates conditions in which less and less is expected of us—as our lives are simplified by technology. Our physical and mental needs are sated by outside influences. A plethora of gadgets usurps our attention, which results in, what Albert Einstein prophetically called, “a generations of idiots.”
That’s us. The gadgeteers.

And then there is the Inner Evolution.
Many if not most scientists deny that such even exists. They pride themselves in being atheists, not realizing that, except for the sacerdotal society fewer and fewer people recognize even the Bible as a religious document.
To set the record straight, Bible is a compendium of knowledge accumulated over thousands of years, designed to help us with our inner evolution. It states repeatedly that we (ye) are gods, that “father and I are one”, that we are ALL “children of the most high”. That the only heaven we shall ever experience is within us. It encourages us to continue discovering the divinity, or better said, the Infinite Potential that simmers within us, waiting to be discovered.
Some, very few, discover at least a smidgen of the power that is our rightful heritage. We refer to those few as geniuses, immortal composers, painters, poets, even scientist; all whose raison d’être, whose fulfillment, was derived from the Unconscious within. There, and only there, lies our invincible, immortal power. ‘Without’ are only the consequences, the results, that illustrate our hidden Potential.
And yet, YE ARE GODS!
All of us.
We must evolve the Potential Within, not rely on gadgets we invent to reduce our thinking to absolute minimum—to become a generation of idiots.

I attempted to illustrate the above premise in my Alexander Trilogy. In Book One, ALEC, the protagonist of the same name, takes the first steps along the path of self-discovery. In ALEXANDER he climbs towards meeting his real potential. Finally his son, SACHA, takes the gigantic steps towards evolutionary apex.
Like his father, Sacha evolved within, and gradually advanced towards clearer understanding what was his purpose for being on Earth. We all have unique missions, unique contributions to the evolution within.
Shouldn’t the rest of us at least try to find out what ours is? 

Alexander Trilogy Book One